Here are a few of my songs that were inspired by my mental health struggles:
Joy Keeps Finding Me - written in 2014
Lyrics:
God I wish you
had arms sometimes / So you could
reach down and hold me / Cuz I know
you’re there but I can’t feel it / And maybe
needing to feel is weak but / I’m only human // Joy keeps
finding me In the strangest places / Stopping and
staring and remembering what grace it / I don’t know
why you’re burdening me with this / With sleepless
nights and daily fights / With lies to
stay alive / But it’s worth
it / Some way,
somehow / I can’t
explain it now / But it’s worth
it // Chorus // I’ve been
living my life with baited breath / Hoping my
dreams coming true will be what happens next / Instead comes
unexpected pain / And new
suffering / Every day’s a
battle no one knows about // Chorus // Your love
feels like a scourge / This valley
like a gorge / Where are you
leading me / You said this
burden is light but my back is breaking / But maybe love
grows / When we follow
where you go / And trust
there’s a heart behind this pain / Surrender
expectations / Let go of
hesitations / And just fall // Chorus // When I’m
coming apart / I can’t try
and control / Can’t be
strong on my own / Just have to
trust that you know / That joy will
find me
Hurts and Battle Wounds - written in 2014
Lyrics:
Feel like a
ghost of myself / An empty shell / Of what I long
to be / Pretend to be / Happy / So much to get
done / When I just
wanna run / Away from it
all / Guess I’m too
emotional / Take things
way too personal / These feelings
are negotiable / Oughta be more
sociable / Keep your head
up and it’ll calm down / That’s what
they say / So I get
lonelier and lonelier each day // Praise a God
who saves / Who isn’t
afraid of hurts and battle wounds / He has them
too / Praise a God
who walks among us / Talks as one
who has / Suffered the
same pain / Praise a God
who doesn’t turn away // God have mercy
on a weary soul / Trying so hard
to make my spirit whole / Seeking you so
desperately / Throw myself
at your loving feet / Oh, God, I’m
weary / Why don’t you
come / Can’t do this
on my own / Write the
answers on / My heart of
stone // Chorus // Wish I had it
all together / Didn’t get so
thrown by this stormy weather / But I don’t
want to be burden / So I hide
behind this curtain / And I slowly
drift away
The Great Unknown
Pardon the awful picture...I wrote this song about the difficulty of transition and setting off on a new path in life. I think it also just generally captures the struggle of being an extra-sensitive person too. I actually wrote a blog post about the situation I was in as I was writing this song, which you can read here.
Lyrics:
I feel so small / In this cavernous hall / This world is so big / Its weight could snap this mere twig of a girl / All of these people rushing around / I start to cry if I set foot out of town / How can I make it on my own // I'm a fragile thing / Handle with care / I've got a thin skin / It's a sharp world out there / How can I make it on this road / All alone / Out in the great unknown // They say I'm something special / Tell me I've got a gift / But when I look around me / Seems like I just don't fit / Keep comparing myself / Always come up short / No matter how you count it / Don't make the leaderboard // Chorus // Saw a man today / I was captured by the light in his face /But I've locked up my heart / You'll go down in flames if you let a fire start / Caught a glimpse of a dream today / But I've hoped before and then been made to pay / I know it's a long shot / But these days seems hope is all I've got // Chorus // So alone / Cuz you don't know / How to make it on your own / So confused / What if I lose / Everything I know / Afraid to hope / Cuz you don't know / How to make it on this road
Those are the songs that pertain most closely to mental health, but I also have other songs about faith, heartbreak, and all that good stuff that I think most people can relate to. You can hear them here.
If you have music you've written about your own struggle with mental illness, feel free to comment and share the lyrics or audio/video or use the contact form on the right sidebar. Thank you for listening!
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